New year~!

The new year's finally here.! Its a time of joy and celebrations and it provides so much hope for a new start. To forget all the messes you made in the previous year and somehow it just makes you feel better knowing that you have another chance to wrong all the rights, redo all the things that you resolved to but never actually got around to doing.

So here are all my resolutions for the new year (mind you, i only make resolutions i can actually keep)... so yeah..

1)To make the people i love,happy

2)To be nice to others

(As cliched as it may sound, i'm actually capable of being pretty mean.. and i HAVE been pretty mean... )

3)To play my guitar every day...

4)To love unconditionally

5)To try and be less judgemental

And thats about it. Happy new year everybody. Have a wonderful year ahead.

Phoenix

Somewhere during my journey,

i lost sight of who i am

I forgot how to believe

I began doubting everything around me

My life, my direction, my ambitions...

But i met somebody

who taught and reminded me how easy it is to believe (him)

Somewhere along the way

i forgot how to smile

i met people who taught me it was okay to cry

And as i cried...

I learnt how to smile again

Somewhere down the line

I met a girl

who taught me how to forgive

It came to her naturally

and she probably has no idea what she taught me

Somewhere on this path

I lost track of my life

lost interest in all that i loved....

Then....

People,

helped me remember...

And i re-emerged

Stronger....Feeling better than ever

Somewhere along the way,

the old me died

Some of the people who taught me how to love

helped me grow...

suddenly left my life...

And i crashed and burned...

And i emerged from my own ashes...

To fight...

And to fly again....

Innocence....(part 2)

Mind you,innocence is not taking candy from strangers or taking a lift from a person who claims to be ur mom's sister's ex-boyfriend's cousin's roommate's fiance. Thats just plain stupidity. Don't confuse the two because innocent people aren't always stupid and stupid people aren't always innocent....

Innocence....(part 1)

Contrary to what most people believe,innocence is not related to anything a person knows (be it sex,drugs or rock n roll.). Or the extent of depth of knowledge he/she has on the subjects. Thats not innocence.
Innocence is a feeling. When u giggle childishly when ur bf tells u he loves u-thats innocence....
When u truly believe in something that nobody else does,for a reason tat even u don't know....

Missin u A LOT baby...

Hey..im suddenly really inspired 2 Blog sumthin, f course dis is mainly cuz m sittin absolutely jobles here!lol wel d title pretty much sums it up bt i mite as wel add sumthin since im bloggin neway.. Ever since col strtd, d 1ly thin i mis mor dan my skool is havin u near me... N trus me, im missin skool quite a lot.. Im feelin really quite lonely n wish u were beside me al d tim 4 d rest f my lif... I wanna hold u in my arms, they feel hollow witout u fillin dem..i wanna sho u how strong ive bcum by carryin u ;-) i wanna sho u how much i luv u n how much i wanna keep u happy 4 d rest f ur lif, unfortunately, no wrds 4m ne language can express d amt.. Tho ive lost ALL hope 4 mankind aft wat hapnd, i gues ders sumthin deep inside dat keeps me goin.. Frankly Aishu, ive been reduced 2 nuttin very much exceedin an empty shell aft al d blows dat i took durin d hols.. 4 1ce i want sum1 2 comfort ME rather dan d oder way arnd.. I so wish u Wud b dat sum1 bt i dunno whethr u undrstan me enuf.. U may nt lik me sayin dis bt its d truth.. Lik i sed actions speak louder dan wrds.. Wel neway.. I do nt wish 2 take up nemor f ur tim..study hard n b dun wit evrythin 1ce n 4 al n lets hope thins change 4 d betr.. Signin off wit loads f luv, urs truly, d guy whod kill 2 protect u :-* :-* :-* :-*

Where ever you will go - The Calling

Of course this isnt my creation bt Aishu, I mean evry single word of it

So lately, I've been wonderin
Who will be there to take my place
When I'm gone, you'll need love
To light the shadows on your face
If a great wave should fall
It would fall upon us all
And between the sand and stone
Could you make it on your own

[Chorus:]
If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

And maybe, I'll find out
The way to make it back someday
To watch you, to guide you
Through the darkest of your days
If a great wave should fall
It would fall upon us all
Well I hope there's someone out there
Who can bring me back to you

[Chorus]

Runaway with my heart
Runaway with my hope
Runaway with my love

I know now, just quite how
My life and love might still go on
In your heart and your mind
I'll stay with you for all of time

[Chorus]

If I could turn back time
I'll go wherever you will go
If I could make you mine
I'll go wherever you will go

Shut up, you bloody hypocrites!!!

I am a fairly tolerant person... But this IS the FREAKING HEIGHTS.... And i can't stand it anymore..... This goes out to all the hypocrites out there... JUST SHUT UP AND GET A LIFE....

I study in a coeducation school, unlike my enterprising coauthor who studies in a same sex school. I find it perfectly normal that guys and girls talk, hang out together, etc etc.

I have nearly 5-8 guy friends in my class and 3 girl friends in my class. So mostly, the guys are poking fun of me, or imitating me, or doing something silly or we're all just sharing a good laugh. What's wrong with this you ask? Nothing, actually.

Whats wrong, are whispers behind my back that kinda go like this

"Omg. You think they're dating?"

"God, what a slut, always hanging around guys"

"Are you kidding? They're definitely dating"

"I don't know what they see in her"

"What a stuck up bitch. She never talks to anyone other than those guys"

For once, i'd like to say, why don't you bloody idiots take a look in the mirror, before commenting on somebody else? (If you're a girl) How many guys do YOU smile at and giggle dumbly with or act friendly with? (And if you're a guy) How many girls do you like (as a friend) and how many friends do you have, whom you think are cute but you like her as just a friend?

If there was not meant to be any interaction between the two opposite sexes, then god would've ensured that there was no need for it. God would've programmed girls like pigeons. (The female pigeon sometimes, only needs to look at a male pigeon in order to get fertilized).

But NO, God programmed us differently. Any guy girl interaction is absolutely normal. It was meant to happen for God's sake, so stop raising eyebrows when a guy and a girl slap a hi-5 or when a girl hits the guy over his head in irritation or when you see a guy saying something to a particularly teary eyed girl, trying to make her smile or laugh again or when a guy and a girl are just sitting by each other and having a good laugh.

The elder generation says that values are lost on us. They say that we don't understand the value of anything. This is a classic example of hypocrisy. We have values. They may be different from yours, but that doesn't mean we don't have any values at all...!

Here's a classic validation for that... I had to visit cents and pence the other day (Its a kids shop near my house) as my sister(cousin) just had a baby girl. We(My mom n i) wanted to buy a dress for her. I stopped by to recharge and mom proceeded. Stepping out of the recharge shop, i saw a senior i knew and about 4 other guys sitting there on bikes. The guy i knew(Mind u, he's NOT a friend n a total prick) called out to me and asked me how i was and all. I would've been standing there talking to him for about 5-8 minutes before politely excusing myself and running off. The second i stepped away from the guys, i realised that the whole fuckin street was looking at me. Or would glaring at me be a more appropriate adjective??

I understand we're still in India. I understand that chennai in particular is still extremely orthodox but don't we, at some point have to keep up with overall development? It's not enough if every one owns cell phones, pulsars or trashy mp3 players or iPods. Why don't we take a second and not be so judgmental?

Oh n another very good example... I'd attended a RYLA(Rotary Youth Leadership Awards) camp where i'd left home for two days. I'd packed three bags. One big travel bag, one medium sized bag and one small sling bag. The bus'd dropped us at my school which is pretty close by to my house. The bus dropped me off and i'd called my girl friend. We were talking and suddenly, i realised that people were giving me dirty glares, as i walked on that road, towards the kotturpuram railway station, laden with bags. I ignored steadily. It got too much when A lady (not so)subtly pulled her kid away and quickened her pace. I stopped and called out to her. "I'm not running away from home". She threw me a backward glance and literally ran away from the place. Bah.

I guess i can give you a thousand other examples. But i think you'd've got my point by now. All i'd like to say is, it's okay if your a member of the older generation and you get irritated when teenagers text non stop or if we're always hooked on to our gadgets. I understand your frustrations up to one extent. But it's NOT okay if you think that you automatically have the right to judge us just cause you're older. Stop and think for a second. Just cause a guy and girl are friends-it absolutely does not mean that they're "in love". If you wanna ape the west in every possible manner(Starting with a fake accent -_-" ), then why don't you start opening your mind a bit wider? Stop making all the girls call their guy friends their "Brothers" even if they don't like them as brothers and they like the guy as just a friend!

Yes, such a thing really exists!!

I Dunno....

Well for once, the title pretty much says it all.

"I Dunno"

this 1 phrase can make or mar things.......

It has answered a lot of questions in my life atleast!!! It just simplifies matters so much. If u have a question and u just cant seem to figure out the answer but somewhere in the depths of your mind a little squeak (or a gigantic screech if you're really pissed with that question!!) tells you that either it doesn't really matter if you don't get the answer or that getting the answer wont really make any difference then just say, "I Dunno"!! Do not, i repeat DO NOT underestimate the power behind this phrase. Just think of this, some dude is in some crappy situation, hes either really pissed or has just pissed himself, he comes up to you and asks you something, you dont really know him n u feel (c'mmon everyone has SOME intuition!!) that answering his question would just make his situation worse or might get you into some shit yourself just answer, "I Dunno." and VOILA! it has already done its magic, the guy completely leaves you and leaves behind any evil thoughts hes had about you (you can't always say otherwise you know...) never bothering you ever again even if he comes across you again, and again...and again... On the other hand had you said something u think would calm him down, it might have back fired or who knows, the guy might never leave you alone whether you like it or not!! Sure this phrase comes with consequences of its own and yea it isn't always the best answer but hey! its a billion times better than most other replies and sounds that you make when you are at a loss of knowledge!! So, boys and girls, always remember this, wait...er....what did i want you to remember again???.....uh.....er.....i dunno....hey! yea! I DUNNO!!! Live life in peace! I btw if you're wondering how in the world i got this topic in my mind, heres the 1 fix, do-it-all solution magical answering thingy, i dunno!!

p.s: i dunno what p.s is!! lol

oh, almost totally forgot, picking up from the post of my lovely co-author, the 95g of lust that you add always has different effects on each and every person it is tried on. No two people have exactly the same response to that so be careful with the dosage n usage....

Love potion ^_~

The most sought after thing in the world,

so listen close, boys and girls,

To make a love potion

you must follow these clues

and before you know it,

that special someone will be crazy about you! ^_~

2 kgs of love

95gms of lust

1/2 Kg fights (to strengthen the relationship)

105gms of understanding

50gms of adoration(maybe more, depending on the person in question)

275 gms of spontaneous craziness

50gms of parental trouble ( U need it to get closer, believe me)

Add it all up.... Stir well....

Optional ingredients: Late night phone conversations, excessive laughter,tickle rockets, etc etc(You're free to add these in any ratio you want)

BUT BEWARE...

Somtimes... Love potions have side effects if not properly brewed... So if your lover is showing any of the following symptoms... It means your potion hasn't been brewed right... Discontinue dosage immediately...

1.Obssession:

If your lover starts to literally stalk you... You've added too much of spontaneous craziness which makes it just plain craziness.

2.Puppy dog adoration:

Its normal for a couple to adore each other. However, if your lover's staring at u starstruck while ur drinking a glass of water, you know something's gone wrong

3.Silly fights

If your lover starts nitpicking and fights with u for dumb silly reasons, and insignificant and nearly unnoticeable stuff. Ex- Not putting things back into its place, or forgetting to switch off a light, you know then, that you've made a terrible mistake...

Other side effects include warts, insanity, blindness(Don't get overly panicky...love IS blind), and in rare cases, the person's skin turns green and blotchy....(oh wait.... thats the side effect of another one of my potions...oh never mind...)

Well... All i can say is... GOOD LUCK!!!

And do contact me if there are any side effects other than the ones mentioned....

Two teenagers

Just look at us

two teenagers

mad weird and at times dumb

and also completely and madly in love

with each other so deep

that we don't need

to care about what other people say

We hold hope in our hearts for tomorrow

and live with joy in today

Every time i make you laugh

a million fireworks go off in my heart

i feel like punching the air

and screaming and celebrating

Cause i know i've made your pain lessen

even if its just for a minute or a few seconds

Just look at us,

two teenagers completely and madly in love

when i press the green button on my phone

i love knowing that i'll never be alone

ever again and my soul

feels closer to yours

and i feel a billion times more secure

Just look at us

two teenagers,

crazy in love

like some kind of drug

we'll never get enough

of all the things about each other

each other that we love so much

like the way you love my laugh

and i like the way you're SO fuckable

Lol! Sorry babe

I'm just kiddin

(But i won't deny that i like that ;) )

But with you my life just has so much more meaning

and you made me the person i am

else i'd've been some random bitch on the corner of the street

instead you taught me good

you literally saved me

Just look at us,

two teenagers completely in love

and when i think about our future

i get goosebumps

when i think about

me in a red wedding saree

or you in a white sherwani

walking around that fire, seven times

holding hands, sharing our lives

i feel tears of happiness mist over my eyes

when i think about a whole life with you

with little kids calling me mommy

and you, daddy

I close my eyes

i can see it so clearly

For once when i think of the future

i feel hope and not despair

all because of you being there

to complete the picture

where there wasn't even a canvas

or chalk or crayons or paint to draw the picture on

Please don't leave me,

i'll never be able to move on

Hold my hand when things get tough

wipe my tears when life seems rough

hold me tight when i'm afraid

come, share your life with me

Help me be the best i can be

Cause with you,

i have my OWN identity

I'm not my daddy's girl

i'm not my mother's daughter

i'm not my sister's sister

i'm ME

and thats all that seems to matter to you

I can see the crazy impulsive love

of two insane teenagers like us

slowly but surely turn beautifully mature

When i think of your undying love

i can rest assured

People think we're just infatuated

That we don't know what "love" really is

For once, i don't want to listen

I've had enough of smuggling love

i know enough to know i want this

our love may not be as pure as the heavens above

but this is sure as hell true

i wanna be with you

forever and always

as your wife,

loving you eternally,

sharing your life

And living my life with you by my side

GOD!! Please help me!!

ok...date:24-2-2010 just four more days for my publics.....
I've been staying back at school and studying there of late. It is certainly better than studying at home with my parents constantly under tension and also putting me in more of it!! But studying at school has brought abouttensipon of another kind. Looking at me study at school almost every freakin person i come across through out the day expects a freakin state rank from me!! ok had i been studying ever since school started rthis academic year, sure i would have been able to get a state rank (may be) but i didn't and so i know i won't be able to get a bloody state rank. Give me a break, i know i am pretty bright compared to most other students but i'm jus too laid back to get a state rank and even if i do get it i can frankly tell you that i wouldn't deserve it. Heck, if i get a state rank i'll lose all chances of going into automotive engineering (something i really REALLY wanna do) and will have to sit and cut up (human) bodies for the rest of my life. I'd rather make a car that can stop all accidents than try to save the life of a person whos been in an accident! I hope people remember that last sentence it is the one sentence that keeps me going...and of course theres Aishu whokeeps me going but neither she or that sentence can get me a state rank (about which i don't really care!) *sigh* Well atleast i know that other people will be a lot more disappionted than i when i DON'T get a state rank. Well lets see what exactly happens. I'm off for now, see you all(if theres anyone there reading this blog at all!!) after my boards. Tata and bye for now (and no i'm not advertising for tata by asking you to "bye"(buy) it...i know, i know MOKKAI! God please help them!!)

The blogger meet up, ahem, my side of the story...

Well the morning was like any other morning, woke up sleepily then looked at my watch..."MO 28-12" it said...then my eyes widened....o god! its d-day! That was enough to charge me up for the morning routine. Trust me it takes A LOT to charge me up as soon as i wake up! I went thru my morn routine, reched my buddy's house from where i caught an auto. For the first time in a very, VERY long time i felt as i call it "funny in my tummy" lol. Well i saw her....and my heart skipped a beat and my brain prayed for nothing wrong to happen. The smile that greeted me when i called out to her was out of this world, truely made me feel high! She was everything i wanted and more! Generally one sight of a person and i can decipher a lot of info but this time it was different, this time i somehow just didn't WANT to decipher anything whatsoever! I was just so happy that i finally get to spend sometime with her. FINALLY after about 2 and a half years!! We walked down to the hotel, splitting up for the walk as she was scared that there were snipers up in the air (on the road rather!!) lol. That i must say was the most depressing thing actually, that i can't even walk beside the girl of my life on the bloody road! (the very road where i nearly killed myself, again, cred for that goes to her lol) Other than that it was a blast, quite literally, a blast of fun, a blast of feel good, a blast of heart rate, a blast of adrenaline and a lot more....lol Nobody, absolutely NOBODY, has ever made me feel the way she did in those two hours. Two hours flew as fast as two picoseconds (if u don't know what that is jus wiki it don't expect everything!!) We ordered thai noodles and shared a tomato soup, which took about an hour or so to reach our stomachs cuz somehow we just weren't hungry lol. The hotel staff probably regretted our entrance into their hotel cuz we took double the time and only half the food!! lol But sadly the place was too crowded for my liking so i suggested we leave. Outside, i finally got something that i'd been lookin forward to for all the 2 and half years. That one hug made me feel complete, like i belonged there. I really didn't wanna let go but i saw an older looking guy look at us in a way which made me let go. I felt this cold emptiness as soon as i let her go which i still carry in my heart, only she can fill that and make me feel warm again.
Aishu, always remember this, "You complete me..."

(Laughter) Goli for my Valentine!

This isn't anything great but i'm sure it'll bring a smile to your face : )
Baby, Baby,
Give me your answer true;
I'm absolutely crazy,
All for the love of you.
It won't be a stylish marriage,
I can't afford a twin-turbo carriage!
But you'll look sweet,
Upon the seat,
Of the bicycle built for two!
Just rememer, i love you!!

Thank you, thank you, thank you very much!! lol
And just in case you're wondering where in the world i got the title from, "goli" is "bullet" in hindi, "Bullet for my Valentine"!! lol but here of course im refering to goli as in pill lol.
Love you loads honey : *

BLOGGER MEET UP!!!!!!

Okay.... this post has been long overdue.... so let me finish what i started.

THE BLOGGER MEET UP!!!

Safe to say that it was THE craziest thing ever. Started with my friend calling me up and telling me she was outside my house when in reality, she was snuggled under a blanket near fast asleep =P =D

Pulling my master disguise (an adorable fashionable white hat) over my head, i started from home, waited at malar hospital for nearly 5-8 mins when the love of my life got out of the auto. I think its kinda fair to say my heart nearly stopped for a second or so.

Walked to the restaurant where we were at and had one hell of an eventful time. I don't remember laughing this hard and feeling this light and happy and just being myself you know? I gained a lot of material stuff that day but i gained a lot of stuff that was invaluable. Stuff that helps me sleep on a sleepless night. Chases away my demons when my world seems just so full of them and i feel afraid to battle them.

Every single moment, every single second, every word, every pause, every touch, every smile, is imprinted in my memory like it happened yesterday. No scratch that, like it happened five minutes ago. Mind you, i don't need to remember it, with his arms around me, there was one simply amazing and perfect photograph.

And when he had his arms around me, i simply closed my eyes and felt his embrace. How he held on so tightly like he never wanted to let go. How he held on to me so close, like he wanted to chase my pain away and keep me happy for as long as he was alive. And i put my hand on his. A silent communication. Telling him how i much i wanted all that.

And even when we let go and part ways.... felt like things would never be the same between us again and in a very awesomely good way. In the famous words of my amazin co-author

"I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE NEXT BLOGGER MEET UP!"

Wanna hold you tight

This "thing" goes out to my special someone. : )

Its late in the night

And m sittin here holding something tight.

Wonderin whats wrong whats right is what am supposed to be doing,

But this thing m holding,

Prevents me from moving.

When I press it hard to my chest baby,

I feel you are closer to me

Than it appears to be.

In the things I do and think,

I might be right, might be wrong,

But I know one thing for sho'

That my love for you is strong.

YOU, are right HERE,

Right here in ma heart,

Jus sad that circumstaces keep pullin us apart.

'm askin you to wait;

Cuz people threaten to use you as a bait

And in saving you I dont wanna be late,

For to me you mean

More than jus some goth girl.

Without you my world

Would cease its constant twirl.

I ain't no writer,

Neither m I perfect,

But this thing you gave me

Has made me, over these words sweat,

And that my darling,

At a poker game you can bet.

'm still sittin here

Holdin this thing tight

And when you gave it to me

Didn't wanna let you outta my sight.

It was a crime against my so'(ul),

To have let you go when I did

And I did suffer on the inside for it.

"They" say love is a mistake,

Well for you then my heart I forfeit.

I know I can trust you with it

For you dont, in me, see any glitch.

You tell me m perfect,

But looks like you made a mistake,

Cuz I've put you at stake,

And for that its myself that I hate.

I wanna take away all your pain,

Relieve you of all your strain,

Be able to tell you, "Go honey, relax in the rain."

And this thing that im holdin brings me pain

As it remains

A reminder that Im tryin in vain.

I know I cant take away all your pain

And what makes life even more rough,

Is that I feel I dont understand you enough.

But gimme a break baby life is tough;

Talk to me, explain to me, laugh with me,

For I wanna understand you better

And make you laugh even harder,

As I love to hear you laugh my lover

And no one knows that better than you.

Our love other people may hate;

And m guessin its our sad fate,

But my love for you will never abate.

People call me a thief;

People call me a crook,

But this thing m holdin throws all that away.

This thing m talkin about is "THE" book,

The only thing that connects me to you

Besides the pic that we took.

When I had wished that I had a magical hook,

Which could pull time to a halt

For you are my pepper and my salt

Call me cheesy if you want,

I dont care.

(OH YEA, I can read whats going on up there!!)

Life without you would be tasteless and dark

Very unlike that pic we took,

So full of spark.

I had wished i could hold you forever when I did.

Baby I love you and thats no fib.

I wanna hold you forever,

Wanna hold you tight,

Especially when I need you beside me like tonight.

Out of time, out of mind...

hello all, as the title suggests m running outta time...BIG TIME!! M running outta time to do everything (including posting this). So much to do, so less time. And hell yea I agree with tle "lil whiner" that the meet up was really awesome (though a touch disappointing, nothing can be done about that). But I m gonna refrain from talkin about it as I wanna hear her side of the story first (na na na naa naa : P). Well life isn't really going on makhan but theres not much I can do about it. But atleast i can somewhat see the roller coaster track going up somewhere up ahead hope it turns out well. Still scared of the boards, still bored of this sick system...(note to self: do SOMETHING about this crappy educational system if you ever get to a position with considerable power) Can't wait for all this torture to get over (and also my new phone which awaits me at the end of it all, finally, I'll be alive!!! muahahahahaha fear me!!! at that time that is lol) Well the other thing I just can'y wait for is the next blogger meet up!!!