Two teenagers

Just look at us

two teenagers

mad weird and at times dumb

and also completely and madly in love

with each other so deep

that we don't need

to care about what other people say

We hold hope in our hearts for tomorrow

and live with joy in today

Every time i make you laugh

a million fireworks go off in my heart

i feel like punching the air

and screaming and celebrating

Cause i know i've made your pain lessen

even if its just for a minute or a few seconds

Just look at us,

two teenagers completely and madly in love

when i press the green button on my phone

i love knowing that i'll never be alone

ever again and my soul

feels closer to yours

and i feel a billion times more secure

Just look at us

two teenagers,

crazy in love

like some kind of drug

we'll never get enough

of all the things about each other

each other that we love so much

like the way you love my laugh

and i like the way you're SO fuckable

Lol! Sorry babe

I'm just kiddin

(But i won't deny that i like that ;) )

But with you my life just has so much more meaning

and you made me the person i am

else i'd've been some random bitch on the corner of the street

instead you taught me good

you literally saved me

Just look at us,

two teenagers completely in love

and when i think about our future

i get goosebumps

when i think about

me in a red wedding saree

or you in a white sherwani

walking around that fire, seven times

holding hands, sharing our lives

i feel tears of happiness mist over my eyes

when i think about a whole life with you

with little kids calling me mommy

and you, daddy

I close my eyes

i can see it so clearly

For once when i think of the future

i feel hope and not despair

all because of you being there

to complete the picture

where there wasn't even a canvas

or chalk or crayons or paint to draw the picture on

Please don't leave me,

i'll never be able to move on

Hold my hand when things get tough

wipe my tears when life seems rough

hold me tight when i'm afraid

come, share your life with me

Help me be the best i can be

Cause with you,

i have my OWN identity

I'm not my daddy's girl

i'm not my mother's daughter

i'm not my sister's sister

i'm ME

and thats all that seems to matter to you

I can see the crazy impulsive love

of two insane teenagers like us

slowly but surely turn beautifully mature

When i think of your undying love

i can rest assured

People think we're just infatuated

That we don't know what "love" really is

For once, i don't want to listen

I've had enough of smuggling love

i know enough to know i want this

our love may not be as pure as the heavens above

but this is sure as hell true

i wanna be with you

forever and always

as your wife,

loving you eternally,

sharing your life

And living my life with you by my side

GOD!! Please help me!!

ok...date:24-2-2010 just four more days for my publics.....
I've been staying back at school and studying there of late. It is certainly better than studying at home with my parents constantly under tension and also putting me in more of it!! But studying at school has brought abouttensipon of another kind. Looking at me study at school almost every freakin person i come across through out the day expects a freakin state rank from me!! ok had i been studying ever since school started rthis academic year, sure i would have been able to get a state rank (may be) but i didn't and so i know i won't be able to get a bloody state rank. Give me a break, i know i am pretty bright compared to most other students but i'm jus too laid back to get a state rank and even if i do get it i can frankly tell you that i wouldn't deserve it. Heck, if i get a state rank i'll lose all chances of going into automotive engineering (something i really REALLY wanna do) and will have to sit and cut up (human) bodies for the rest of my life. I'd rather make a car that can stop all accidents than try to save the life of a person whos been in an accident! I hope people remember that last sentence it is the one sentence that keeps me going...and of course theres Aishu whokeeps me going but neither she or that sentence can get me a state rank (about which i don't really care!) *sigh* Well atleast i know that other people will be a lot more disappionted than i when i DON'T get a state rank. Well lets see what exactly happens. I'm off for now, see you all(if theres anyone there reading this blog at all!!) after my boards. Tata and bye for now (and no i'm not advertising for tata by asking you to "bye"(buy) it...i know, i know MOKKAI! God please help them!!)

The blogger meet up, ahem, my side of the story...

Well the morning was like any other morning, woke up sleepily then looked at my watch..."MO 28-12" it said...then my eyes widened....o god! its d-day! That was enough to charge me up for the morning routine. Trust me it takes A LOT to charge me up as soon as i wake up! I went thru my morn routine, reched my buddy's house from where i caught an auto. For the first time in a very, VERY long time i felt as i call it "funny in my tummy" lol. Well i saw her....and my heart skipped a beat and my brain prayed for nothing wrong to happen. The smile that greeted me when i called out to her was out of this world, truely made me feel high! She was everything i wanted and more! Generally one sight of a person and i can decipher a lot of info but this time it was different, this time i somehow just didn't WANT to decipher anything whatsoever! I was just so happy that i finally get to spend sometime with her. FINALLY after about 2 and a half years!! We walked down to the hotel, splitting up for the walk as she was scared that there were snipers up in the air (on the road rather!!) lol. That i must say was the most depressing thing actually, that i can't even walk beside the girl of my life on the bloody road! (the very road where i nearly killed myself, again, cred for that goes to her lol) Other than that it was a blast, quite literally, a blast of fun, a blast of feel good, a blast of heart rate, a blast of adrenaline and a lot more....lol Nobody, absolutely NOBODY, has ever made me feel the way she did in those two hours. Two hours flew as fast as two picoseconds (if u don't know what that is jus wiki it don't expect everything!!) We ordered thai noodles and shared a tomato soup, which took about an hour or so to reach our stomachs cuz somehow we just weren't hungry lol. The hotel staff probably regretted our entrance into their hotel cuz we took double the time and only half the food!! lol But sadly the place was too crowded for my liking so i suggested we leave. Outside, i finally got something that i'd been lookin forward to for all the 2 and half years. That one hug made me feel complete, like i belonged there. I really didn't wanna let go but i saw an older looking guy look at us in a way which made me let go. I felt this cold emptiness as soon as i let her go which i still carry in my heart, only she can fill that and make me feel warm again.
Aishu, always remember this, "You complete me..."

(Laughter) Goli for my Valentine!

This isn't anything great but i'm sure it'll bring a smile to your face : )
Baby, Baby,
Give me your answer true;
I'm absolutely crazy,
All for the love of you.
It won't be a stylish marriage,
I can't afford a twin-turbo carriage!
But you'll look sweet,
Upon the seat,
Of the bicycle built for two!
Just rememer, i love you!!

Thank you, thank you, thank you very much!! lol
And just in case you're wondering where in the world i got the title from, "goli" is "bullet" in hindi, "Bullet for my Valentine"!! lol but here of course im refering to goli as in pill lol.
Love you loads honey : *